You were once like the sun
Spreading light and warmth
Everywhere you went
Now there's a certain coldness
Creeping out of your body
Tainting all the words you say
I can feel you withdrawing
From the image of you I know
With greater frequency
As the days go by one by one
Every time they come to an end
And you set behind me in bed
I fear what will become of you
Tomorrow
Your transformation freightens me
The anxiety is coursing through my veins
And it's breaking me down, breaking me down
I mimic you and act like nothing's wrong
The worry won't let me ignore the problem
And it's breaking me down, breaking me down
Over time you became like the m
I feel a barrier standing between
Me, the world I see, and me
And though it's invisible to you
It's completely real to me
It's way too real to me
A structure clear and paper thin
You'd think it would disappear
With the slightest gust of wind
But in spite of that delicate appearance
It's as solid as tempured steel
I could live this sequestered life
If it was just one partition
Keeping me away from the people I see
Instead of a division within another
division within a hundred others
I'm no longer a single entity
I'm an infinite number of subunits
That are isolated from each other
"The whole is greater than the sum
Of it's parts" is what th
Out in the open, surrounded by landscapes
Both new and old to their analytical eyes
The writer scans the land for inspiration
But they can't find a way to describe
What they're feeling inside their heart
Words used to flow forth from their pen
Like rivers rushing to meet the ocean
But now the pen's as dry as an empty riverbed
And refuses to write a single letter
Before long, the writer grows impatient
And is forced to return to town all alone
With only another failure keeping them company
The same dark thoughts run through their mind
Is this the end of me? Have I said everything?
Will I ever write just a single line again?
That's when they
Lucid Dreaming/Derealization by Omarius99, literature
Literature
Lucid Dreaming/Derealization
I open my eyes to see
A white room surrounding me
When I walk through the only opening
I'm lead into a sprawling hall
With many branching offshoots
Empty frames line the walls
The second I walk past each one
Images suddenly fill the frames
But the images aren't paintings
They're memories, my memories
The ones I lost years ago
The ones I tried to forget
My instincts kick in and I run
Can't make sense of anything
Every twist and turn I take
Feels like returning to sqaure one
There's no exit to found
Someone trapped me in a prison
With the intent of blackmail
But what if I'm responsible?
Is this a prison of my own design?
I stop to catch my
Sleepless nights by the telephone
Have become my new routine
I hold out for your correspondence
But more often than not
I lose consciousness empty handed
The free space of my days
Is filled with endless ponderings
Over whether this is finally the end
Sometimes I wish it was all over
So I can finally breathe a sigh of relief
And be free of the anxiety over us
But deep down I know the opposite is true
I know that I'll miss you if you go
Despite my efforts to change
I can't sake those old habits
I'll always return to the familiar
Cause I can't shake those old habits
And they won't loosen their grip on me
Cause true to their nature
Those old ha
I remember how it used to be
I was stumbling through life
Trying to find my way back to me
After yet another heartbreak
That's when you entered the picture
Appearing like a flash in the sky
One second I was all on my own
And the next you came out of nowhere
Over time you slowly worked your way in
And everything between us soon escalated
If only I knew then what would be in store
Your love blossoms in the dark
Like someone cast a spell on your heart
I wish it'd stay but it always fades
You're like the stars in the night sky
Shining bright for a little while
But by morning light you're gone
You're like the stars in the night sky
Filling me wi
I let the vile venom of others
Corrupt my once trusting mind
Their twisted words led me astray
And now I'm someone I don't recognize
All the good will I've accumulated
Has vanished right before my eyes
I've fallen from my pedestal
And there's no turning back
No rescue from the fall
Everyone who once held me up
Now must be weary of my every move
Cause if I'm left to my own devices
I'll show them true destrution
Oh, I've lost my senses
Lost the plot and my heart
All I have is pure venom
Coursing through my veins
There's no blood pumping through me
Only that poisonous elixir
I willingly drank
All I have is pure venom
Deep inside
I stood aside
You can fortify the exterior all you want
But it means nothing if the foundation is weak
You can hide the cracks on the surface
But you can't run from how you feel inside
You can keep the invading forces at bay
But what's the use when the real war you're fighting
Has been taking place within your castle all along
You can spend your whole life
Trying to keep the walls around you
From crumbling right before your eyes
But it doesn't matter what you do
If they're meant to fall, they'll fall
And nothing can stop them
And no one can stop them
Not even you
Some castles aren't meant to stand the test of time
Even if they manage to survive the rava
Mary was always an obedient girl
She was born to serve and appease
A billion faces she'll never see
The beacon of model behavior
But only when she does as she's told
She's the most worshipped woman
But only cause she plays second fiddle
To all the men in her life with no objection
Forced to sacrifice her freedom
For some greater cause
She's the original Joan of Arc
Forced to sacrifice her child
For the betterment of her people
Like old, brave Agamemnon
Deep down she knows it's wrong
But the decision isn't hers to make
When night envelops the land
She kneels down by her bed
And prays for her son
To be returned to her
She prays for her son
T
Wrapped in chains of foliage
And bathed in dull flashes of sun
A city that all of time forgot
Stands somewhere in the world
Hiding from us in plain sight
Waiting for someone to come along
And learn the secrets it holds
But no one ever shows up
Banished from civilization
The lost city always sleeps
Only a new life could break
This cruel spell of dormancy
Even then there's no guarantee
That the curse can be lifted
All the city's buildings
Sit cloaked in a veil of dust
Where echoes once rebounded
Now lives a deafening silence
The city is still alive
But if you looked at it
You could see it slowly dying
But the death day will never come
Banis